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It turned out that I ruinded two relationships that day. The poor girl that got caught in the crossfire, the girl I thought Chris was cheating on me with, got dumped by John her boyfriend. I cannot stress on the consquences of Gossiping. Chris never got over that day. I'm not sure who to blame. I want to blame Shanna, the person who told me in the first place. But I can't can I?? I have to blame myself, I was the one who was telling people. I was the one who made Chris feel bad. And now I can't believe that I didn't believe in Chris enough to know that he wouldn't. I mean by that time, we were going out for 5 months. I guess I just wanted the drama. It was my fault, although that wasn't the only reason.
Field Day was in May, so after that I only saw Chris a few times, since I was off in Washington and he was vacationing in Hawaii. After we got back to school Chris had achieved 1.) Very long, all the way to his shoulder kinda like Jackie Chan. 2.) He had VERY bad acne from the hair in his forehead. I still like him but I constantly nagged him about his hair. You're probably thinking thats why he broke up with me, but its not. I'll tell you later in this poor love story.
I had two classes with Chris, 1st and 5th peroid. I also had two classes with Kevin Tran who will come in too. Anyways, in first peroid I sat in front of Chris and behind Kevin. I bonded with Chris so much, I felt like we were going somewhere. Like Rehab. We were recovering from the shock of what I did back on Feild Day.
That was until I was hit by a truck. Okk not really. But truck represents the little crush I devolped for Kevin. Unfournatley Chris and I was going to one of our monthly fights. Where we get both get mad at each other and make up the following week. Anyways, I told my friend Kimmy (The Best Best Friend in the World) who told Kevin. And Kevin said he like me. Only after a couple people informed me that he meant it as a friend. You can imagine how that blew over. I spent a week thinking he like me and he didnt. Anyways I got back with Chris later in the week.
Then two weeks later, Kevin came back. He was walking with Chris. Kevin looked completely confident and Chris was snickering trying to hold in a laugh. "Do you still like me?" That was surprising since he denied me 3-2 weeks ago. Infront of Chris I had to say No. Chris bursted out laughing and said "I told you so, now you owe 5 bucks Kevin" I couldn't help it I blushed. My mind couldn't help it either. I mean it buzzed with thoughts of what would happen if I did go out with Kevin. At 4th peroid, which I want to mention Chris is not in, Kevin really confronted me. Like he was repaeting "You're denying Vivian" and "You know you like me" Omg he was so persistent, so I just gave in. I know I'm a slut. God, I'm such a doormat. I actually AGREED to go out with Kevin, while I was still going out with Chris. not Chris noticed. I'm blaming him again. Grrrr. I can't help it, my sadness is a mixture of my fault and his fault too, rightt? I being the dishonest person I was, had to listen to Chris so I could better from being such a bad person. I had to be honest with Chris so I told him about my little feelings about Kevin.
He flipped, heck I flipped about Nina. Ironically the same happened to me. Chris liked Nina, told me. Me mad. Like really mad, he didnt even tell me. My cousin told me. Who asked him out the day after he broke up with me. Can imagine how mad i was? Really mad, too mad to write more.
Oh and Travis is welcome to correct me on any Grammer Mistakes, even though I'm better at Grammar then he is mrgreen