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Dear Diary,

Its been a long time since I wrote in my diary so I thought maybe I should update all that has happened. I should probably start with winter break.

My winter break was so ******** boring. We went to Alabama Thursday a couple hours after I got out of school. I sleep the whole way there pretty much, though I didn't have much room cause of ZACK. At Tab's we didn't have Cable and no internet, and that my whole life. I guess I did have time to write my stories which is what I did most of the time. I'm glad Zack lives down there, he's an a*****e. He was a total b***h to us down there. I think if he had to pick me or one of he's friends to live he would pick his friend cause it sames that's all he cares about. I guess I wouldn't pick me too, I'm invisible all the time and when I'm not i want to be. I feel as if my life means nothing I I feel like it means nothing to Zack either. Mir Mir was a cry baby who cried about everything, and Ricky and Tab don't do anything about it. It was the wasn't break I have ever had. I wanted to hang out with my friends but no.

We had dodge ball into at school so I skipped that's why I'm on now. I hate school its so boring, lol sweatdrop . If i could drop out i would, i don't think most people would believe I would say something like that. I guess I don't really care about anything like some people think I do. Yes I want to be a child and youth worker and yes I want to help people with hard lives and tough pasts but I just find everything about school stupid and boring. I try and stay away from boring things, that's how I am but like I said most people don't know that and they don't try to really know me. If someone asked me a question any question and I'll pretty much tell the truth less I have to lie. Well the Monday after break was dumb and BORING. I didn't go Tuesday I was too tired and I think It was cause of the 4 sleeping pills I took, hey I wanted to get to sleep. O I forgot to tell I got a I-Pod for Christmas heart 4laugh .

Well I have a boyfriend again. Yup that's right, Trevor T. He likes me and asked me out about three different times once him really asking but it was over myspace and I said yes well the next day Rebecca did. I like him but I like J.J way more. I'm in love with J.J even if I don't know what he looks like and I just like Trevor and I thinks its more of a friend thing. I think J.J likes Rebecca H., and I think she like him even though I told I'm head over heels in love with him. Trevor's nice but I think he's still like a good friend so I don't think we'll go out for long. O and we may be moving.

Yup my mom wants to move to Alabama, Cullmen Alabama. I think I want to a little. I want to move before school ends so I have friends but I would miss the good friends I have here. Well I think Rebecca D and Rebecca H I would miss out of all of them cause I can be my REAL self in front of the and around everyone else I'm in a lonely shell, can empty one sweatdrop . Rebecca D I think I would miss even more cause she's like my sister, hell she is my sister, twins. But I think maybe this move could be good even if I don't make any friends, at least my mom will be Happy.

I'm watching this TV series called Roswell and its really good but I may get bored of it if I keep watching it over and over, it has 61 episodes and I'm on episode 7, almost done with that episode. I went to the book store yesterday and got 6's books and I'm done with 2 of them. I started ready Roswell high The Outsider but now I'm watching it's TV series, lol what I sometimes like watching then reading which is weird coming from me.

I think I went to get a real journal and write in that then on here. But on here I know no one well read my private thoughts and someone could steal my journal and sometimes I think of death a lot . I just don't know cause this site could one day just be gone along with my Entries, maybe I should print them then get a journal. I don't know and like always I don't care. I think if I found out the world was ending i would just blow it off. idea maybe that's way I'm lonely and depressed.

Well I think I'm getting a little bored of writing so I think I'll stop here but If anything else happens tonight I'll post a new entry. O and right now I don't real well and I'm burning up just so you know. emo