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Dear Diary,

So I yet do not have a diary but when I find one I like i'll get it, but for now I like writing my diary online so no one can read it but me. Lately some people have been getting on my nerves, mainly both Rebecca's.

Rebecca Heavin's lying about having really emo guys fall for her is pissing me off, I know she's lying, Sam knows she's lying, everyone knows she's lying cause sorry to say I dont believe really hot emo guys would fall for her.

Then Rebecca D. being getting pissed off that John touches other girls more then her and not like her is pissing me off. I really wish she wouldn't be so conceded, she thinks she better then everyone else. It hurts me to say or should I say write this cause like my twin sister but my old friend back, but lately I feel like her side kick or a lost puppy her follows her sad .

Yes John is cute and I think he's funny but for Rebecca and every other girl just to go crazy and get mad at each is a little ******** up.

Well I want to move, I'll miss my friends of course but lately things are changing. I feel invisible but when i'm seen some girls are mad at me because of John.
I like John, not just because he's cute but he can say what he wants with out thinking and he doesn't care what people think of what he says while I can never really say what I want, I over think every thing and the only people I can say what I want and be myself is Rebecca D and Sam. But now I feel as if me and Rebeca aren't as close cry .

Sodapop, Starstruck, and Nebula are gone, I really miss Sodapop, he was so cute.
Sher and Sonny are back, the people who took them get Neb inside cause Sonny was pissing on everything rofl .

I'm talking to john right now on myspace, well I think he got off and I'm so so bored. I just watched The New Guy with my dad and I loved that movie it was so funny but sometimes I think everything is funny.

I'm not that pretty, I'm not that smart, I'm not loud or outgoing, I'm not that happy, I'm not that athletic but I wish Rebeca wouldn't think she was smarter or prettier then me cause she doesn't get that it hurts me and yes I feel that lately i'm just her little lap dog that follows her around and it makes me more depressed then I am.

Well I'm going to the doctors Monday and Track starts Tuesday cant wait.

I think i'm going to stop here for today.

PS Its been a week since I got my belly button pierced 4laugh