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So, today is my little brothers birthday. It really kills me, every year today is a really hard day. A few years ago, while my father and I were starting to stray, he stopped inviting me to his house, which meant i couldn't see my little brother. eventually he changed his number, and i could only contact him on his pager, which meant i couldn't talk to my little brother. and then my dad visited me while i was in the hospital (can ya guess why after all the s**t my dad was putting me through?) and he decided he didn't want anything to do with me anymore. So i've missed my brothers last 4 birthdays. I send him cards with money and notes asking him to write back or call me, but he doesn't. I keep wondering "what has my dad told him to explain my absense for 4 years?" i'm starting to think my brother doesn't want to see me because my father has told him some bullshit. So, Happy 11th birthday Robert, I miss you buddy. sad cry