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wow. so today is one of those days. i wake up in excrutiating pain because i slept wrong or something and my RETARDED spine is putting pressure on my ribs...which results in pressure on my lungs and stomach. so i'm breathing and talking like the kid with one lung on Malcolm in the Middle and i'm doped up to my eyeballs on painkillers. everything i was planning on doing today went down the drain. Clean my room? psh, no way. Do the laundry? HAH! not a chance. Go hand out resumes? psh, i'm not even going to shower today, eff that!

plus, i just realized that i'm ******** for schooling after high school. My mom and I are kindof poor, so i don't know how i'm going to pay for college. (student loans, obviously but still that SUCKS that i have no money to work with) and my dad had SO much money saved for me since i was *gifted* in gradeschool so he thought i'd go to University. I wonder if that money went into my little brothers school savings or if he spent it...

ugh, speaking of which: i still haven't got to bring Robert a card and his birthdya was on the 3rd. i feel so terrible.