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hey to all. I don't have much to say but today I got to go shopping for school's. I know your supposed to do that before school but I do things a little different then the average person. biggrin

I also got my frist paycheck on friday and got it cashed saturday. A friend of mine asked me to get him a present and for some reason I got him something. It's not because of my affection towards him nor does it indacate I like him as a boyfriend. It's just I like to buy stuff for people or for certain people. I don't know why but I do. I know there are people who are going to read this and think "what the hell I've never gotten a present" to those of you Im sorry but everything takes time.

Know here's my finale thought's. The reason for the tittle.
I have decided that after my next paycheck wich will be around $55 dollars I will pay off my dept to toan. I owe him $50 dollars. When I have the money I will tell him how I feel. I am going to tell him I love him and I will back off. I will slowly remove myself from his life. He hates conflict that's why I only telling him my feelings and that I don't expect him to say anything cause I know he doesn't have the same feelings. I also know I have no right to dump this on him but Im being selfish. If I don't tell him then I will never be able to find some else just like him. I caim up with an altimadem. since he hates conflict his choice is that he can call me up wich means he still wants me around and if he doesn't it means he doesn't want me around. I promise him I'm not going to go all psycho and stalk him and yell at him in class. I don't know if it will hurt me but I can't move on if I don't tell him.

I know I'm selfish.