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well I jumped the gun or in front of it. I don't have the money to pay him back but I needed to tell him. I couldn't wait a week. I told him how I felt and a little more yesterday. I told toan why I broke up with him and what it made me relize. One I screwed up the best thing that ever happend to me cause I was affarid and the second how much I love him. He didn't know what to say and I told him he doesn't have to say anything I just wanted him to know. I had an anime meeting yesterday so he at least walked me to the stairs cause the classroom is upstairs. I said me farewellls but he stood thier watching me leave. He didn't move at all. He was just standing thirs watching. The feeling of that well it's hard to describe. He didn't leave till I was out of sight but how long he stood thier I don't know. When I got into the meeting I went strait to the back room to get the money box to see how much we had. Instead of doing that I put my head down on the counter and cried. some friends came in so did the teacher and just tried to make me feel better and ask what was wrong. All I said was Im fine I just need a second. I really havn't told anyone about me telling toan except one friend but her response was as if she didn't care. It kind of hurt and maybe that's why I havn't told anyone else............ you know Im still not sure why I cried but maybe because I was about to cry infront of toan but I held me tears back in front of him. when I was alone they came out. Maybe that's the reason. Maybe.