Dear Diary,
Today seemed to drag on forever... To make it simple I woke up and went to the center in my pajamas again my little brother caught me and asked me where I was going I had to explain everything to him... He laughed... Really hard. So I stomped out of the house and got into my car. Once there I quickly got changed, today Patty wore a black shirt and dark jeans, her blonde hair was pulled into a pony tail. I got in my car and drove Patty and myself to school. However, along the way the car broke down. I spent a long time calling after cars to help... None stopped. One yelled out their window, "Why don't you walk fat girl!". So in the heavy fat suit I walked to school, five miles. Once at school I explained to the office what happened they didn't excuse me... Patty... They hid their smiles and sent us to class. I was late to Patty's first medical class so the teacher decided to torcher us and made us demonstrate CPR. Luckly the only thing that was bad, since I knew how to do that, was that all the kids found it halarious to watch us. Classes seemed to get more and more worse throughout the day, however, me and Patty made it through the day and walked to work and when work was over I walked to the car impoundment. After alot of explaining and begging Patty managed to get my car back. We got it to the car shop somehow and waited there for it to get fixed, and even though all the men there were failures they still laughed at poor Patty and her future was ten times brighter then their's. The car got finished and we got to the center. I was happy to be in my own body again and at the meeting I explained to everyone how my day... Patty's day was hell. People were disrespectful, rude, jerks, and inconsiturat. I couldn't stand how Patty was being treated. I headed home and made a promise to Patty that tomarrow would be different.
-Alison
Dear Diary,
The morning went pretty much the same for me... I woke up really early and jogged to the center, but this time instead of getting dressed right away I noticed that Leon was on the couch asleep with red cheeks. I crouched in front of the couch and looked at his face until he opened his eyes, "You alright?" I asked this morning and he smiled, "Yeah. Better then last night." He said and seemed to let his eyes connect with mine and realize something, "Have your eyes always been brown?" He asked. I giggled and nodded, "Yes." He smiled and said, "They're pretty." He said and let me help him up. I thanked him and we walked to the dressing rooms together and parted as we both started to get dressed. We met in the hallway when we were completly finished getting dressed. I was pregnant Suzie again, wearing a pink dress with black leggings and tiny sweater and beanie hat. The shoes were comfortable... They had to be for Suzie's life. Leon looked so incredibly gay... It was amazing. We both walked to town and got on the bus together. He road me to my school when I left him I truly thought we had a connection. I walked the rest of the way to school and went through it dreaming of having Leon feeling the same way about me. I was greeted by Emily in fourth period instead of the end of the day. She was crying and begged me to hold her in my arms. So I did I held her in the back of the class, kids were whispering like crazy... Emily told me how one of the boys at her school had told her that she didn't have a real mommy (This kid was very talented in my books). I walked her out to the hall and was greeted by Madison who smiled at her daughter and patted her on the head and the two left. Suzie sat in the hall crying once Emily and Madison left. How did someone take control of a life that was horribly hard to control. After school Suzie went to work and the girl that was incredibly skinny and sluty looking backed her into a corner, "You little slut." She said, "You just can't stay out of bed can you?!" She said, "You ever come after my guy and you'll be dead." She said and walked off to be greeted by her two girlfriends who were giggleing in their snobby little way. Suzie... I... Left work early and went to the center and sat on the couch and sobbed until I felt a hand wrap around my shoulder... Leon. Suzie and I trew our sad quivering bodys into his soft chest. He whispered encouraging things to us and stroaked us on the back but when we looked up and the tears cleared it wasn't Leon that sat there it was gay little Henry... It was at that point that I realized something... We both had had a hard day and by the end of it we discovered that Suzie was part of me... Henry was part of Leon. They were like us... They were us... I changed and at the meeting I didn't speak and I went home. With this new discovery I had made... Was anything going to change?
-Kelsie
Dear Diary,
This morning when came to the center I was alone and changed quickly as the center was creepy when no one was there. I was in my cloths fast but the make-up took forever to do correctly... When finished I climbed in my car and drove to school. Wondering where Kelsie was or where anyone was. I got to school pretty late for some reason... I hadn't been watching the clock... And time seemed to slip away from me. So it was very suprising to see cop cars in front of my school. I lept out of my car and ran to see what the comotion was only to see a preppy girl and her cheerleader friends standing behind her smiling as they watched Lillith get pushed into a cop car. Ike ran up beside the worried Killer, "What happened?" Ike asked Killer but Killer didn't seem like he noticed Ike. Finally when Ike got Killer's attention Killer explained that Lucy, the prep, had planted a paper titled 'Kill List' in Lilliths pocket and it had fallen out and Lucy called the cops. Lillith had claimed none of it was true but who was the cheif going to believe... His daughter or a gothic little girl? Killer and Ike... Me... went through school totally mortified. We didn't know what to do. After school we went to the city juvinile prison and waited for them to let Lillith out, they could only hold her for seven hours. Lillith got out and ran to the boys, her make-up smeared with tears. Killer, Lillith and Ike sat out side of the prison holding the small girl crying with her glad she was alright. I had only known Lillith and Killer for two days.. And had only been the character of Ike for two days... I learned now for sure that they had hearts... They weren't zombies. They were just trying to get by. They were human for sure. Ike lifted Lillith into his arms and with Killer by his side walked the crying girl and her twin brother to their home. Lillith had fallen asleep in Ike's arms so the two boys put her into her bed. Killer thanked Ike and the two hugged and parted. I took the disturbed Ike... Me.... To the center and soon we sat the meeting starring across the circle at crying Kelsie. Life was rough and if you were different life was harder. That night Ike followed me home, and on the couch we cried until my parents came home. So even at the dinner table as I thought.... I wondered if Lillith would end up like that girl in the story... A bullet logged in her brain... The thought frightened Ike and me as well...
-Peter
Dear Diary,
This morning I was awkened. I origanlly I thought I was staring into the eyes of a dark haired angel when it was really the sweet Kelsie. I acidentally said something about her eyes being pretty, I meant it... But I must have seemed totally stupid hitting on a girl after I just broke up. I guess I hadn't noticed Kelsie before they way I looked at her now, she had just been dorky little Kelsie in the back of the class. Soon we were changed and I was Henry again... She was suzie. We left for the city to ride the bus... My car had exploded and she had jogged to the center. We rode the bus to her school and talked about the experiment, our lives, class, and just a few jokes here and there. Kelsie got off the bus and the whole way to my school I kept wondering if I actually had feelings for Kelsie... I did not want to end up using her as a rebound... She was too sweet. So once at school I met up with Fred and we latched hands (Of course this still felt weird). We walked to all our classes and everything seemed to go okay until sixth period when the same football played ripped our hands away from eachother and scolded Henry and Fred for being in love... For the second time. This set both Henry and I off. I had to convince myself that Henry wasn't holding me up as I spoke... Henry wasn't even real... But what I did next wasn't just for Henry and Fred it was for many many other gay guys out there that this happened to every day. I turned to glare down the hall at the football player. "Hey you!" I had yelled at him at the top of my lungs, "So why's it fair that you can hold hands with your girlfriend but I can't hold hands with my boyfriend? I love him just as much as you love your girlfriend so why the heck should you have any right to rip my hand away from his?!" The football player turned and glared at me and Fred, his face grew redder with every passing moment. I spoke again, "Mine and Fred's relationship is nothing different from yours!" I yelled and looked to Fred who seemed surprised at what I was doing, nether of us were really gay so this was strange to us both, "If you ever tell me and Fred to seperate our hands again... You will be in for a big surprise." I had yelled and then Fred and I latched hands and walked to the parking lot, I guess I was feeling pretty proud of myself. Work was normal... Boring and retarded. Howerver, when I got back to the center right away I noticed the sobbing Kelsie on the bench. She was still dressed up as Suzie and it seemed that she had been crying for a long time too. I sat beside her and wrapped my arms around her. It was almost if she knew it was me because she collapsed into my arms. When I had convinced her to get changed and come to the meeting we sat next to each other and litsened to the others, I spoke of what I did but Kelsie... Kelsie was quiet. I left her at the front doors and went to the city to see how my mom was doing. When I caught up on the latest I gave them Henry's paycheck and left for the center again. I didn't want the hotel to charge for me and I could get free food at the center. After everyone had left I got to thinking, that proudness I felt... I had never felt somethng that extreme ever before. I had stopped thinking about my ex and started thinking about how I stood up for the gay boy that currently was taking up the magority of my life for this week. Henry and I had bonded in some strange way... Even though he was imaginary I could feel a strong bond building between us. Hopefully I could continue to fight for Henry without getting hurt by giant football players at some point. I wasn't going to give up on making Henry's imaginary life get better, it was my job... And I was going to do it.
-Leon
Today seemed to drag on forever... To make it simple I woke up and went to the center in my pajamas again my little brother caught me and asked me where I was going I had to explain everything to him... He laughed... Really hard. So I stomped out of the house and got into my car. Once there I quickly got changed, today Patty wore a black shirt and dark jeans, her blonde hair was pulled into a pony tail. I got in my car and drove Patty and myself to school. However, along the way the car broke down. I spent a long time calling after cars to help... None stopped. One yelled out their window, "Why don't you walk fat girl!". So in the heavy fat suit I walked to school, five miles. Once at school I explained to the office what happened they didn't excuse me... Patty... They hid their smiles and sent us to class. I was late to Patty's first medical class so the teacher decided to torcher us and made us demonstrate CPR. Luckly the only thing that was bad, since I knew how to do that, was that all the kids found it halarious to watch us. Classes seemed to get more and more worse throughout the day, however, me and Patty made it through the day and walked to work and when work was over I walked to the car impoundment. After alot of explaining and begging Patty managed to get my car back. We got it to the car shop somehow and waited there for it to get fixed, and even though all the men there were failures they still laughed at poor Patty and her future was ten times brighter then their's. The car got finished and we got to the center. I was happy to be in my own body again and at the meeting I explained to everyone how my day... Patty's day was hell. People were disrespectful, rude, jerks, and inconsiturat. I couldn't stand how Patty was being treated. I headed home and made a promise to Patty that tomarrow would be different.
-Alison
Dear Diary,
The morning went pretty much the same for me... I woke up really early and jogged to the center, but this time instead of getting dressed right away I noticed that Leon was on the couch asleep with red cheeks. I crouched in front of the couch and looked at his face until he opened his eyes, "You alright?" I asked this morning and he smiled, "Yeah. Better then last night." He said and seemed to let his eyes connect with mine and realize something, "Have your eyes always been brown?" He asked. I giggled and nodded, "Yes." He smiled and said, "They're pretty." He said and let me help him up. I thanked him and we walked to the dressing rooms together and parted as we both started to get dressed. We met in the hallway when we were completly finished getting dressed. I was pregnant Suzie again, wearing a pink dress with black leggings and tiny sweater and beanie hat. The shoes were comfortable... They had to be for Suzie's life. Leon looked so incredibly gay... It was amazing. We both walked to town and got on the bus together. He road me to my school when I left him I truly thought we had a connection. I walked the rest of the way to school and went through it dreaming of having Leon feeling the same way about me. I was greeted by Emily in fourth period instead of the end of the day. She was crying and begged me to hold her in my arms. So I did I held her in the back of the class, kids were whispering like crazy... Emily told me how one of the boys at her school had told her that she didn't have a real mommy (This kid was very talented in my books). I walked her out to the hall and was greeted by Madison who smiled at her daughter and patted her on the head and the two left. Suzie sat in the hall crying once Emily and Madison left. How did someone take control of a life that was horribly hard to control. After school Suzie went to work and the girl that was incredibly skinny and sluty looking backed her into a corner, "You little slut." She said, "You just can't stay out of bed can you?!" She said, "You ever come after my guy and you'll be dead." She said and walked off to be greeted by her two girlfriends who were giggleing in their snobby little way. Suzie... I... Left work early and went to the center and sat on the couch and sobbed until I felt a hand wrap around my shoulder... Leon. Suzie and I trew our sad quivering bodys into his soft chest. He whispered encouraging things to us and stroaked us on the back but when we looked up and the tears cleared it wasn't Leon that sat there it was gay little Henry... It was at that point that I realized something... We both had had a hard day and by the end of it we discovered that Suzie was part of me... Henry was part of Leon. They were like us... They were us... I changed and at the meeting I didn't speak and I went home. With this new discovery I had made... Was anything going to change?
-Kelsie
Dear Diary,
This morning when came to the center I was alone and changed quickly as the center was creepy when no one was there. I was in my cloths fast but the make-up took forever to do correctly... When finished I climbed in my car and drove to school. Wondering where Kelsie was or where anyone was. I got to school pretty late for some reason... I hadn't been watching the clock... And time seemed to slip away from me. So it was very suprising to see cop cars in front of my school. I lept out of my car and ran to see what the comotion was only to see a preppy girl and her cheerleader friends standing behind her smiling as they watched Lillith get pushed into a cop car. Ike ran up beside the worried Killer, "What happened?" Ike asked Killer but Killer didn't seem like he noticed Ike. Finally when Ike got Killer's attention Killer explained that Lucy, the prep, had planted a paper titled 'Kill List' in Lilliths pocket and it had fallen out and Lucy called the cops. Lillith had claimed none of it was true but who was the cheif going to believe... His daughter or a gothic little girl? Killer and Ike... Me... went through school totally mortified. We didn't know what to do. After school we went to the city juvinile prison and waited for them to let Lillith out, they could only hold her for seven hours. Lillith got out and ran to the boys, her make-up smeared with tears. Killer, Lillith and Ike sat out side of the prison holding the small girl crying with her glad she was alright. I had only known Lillith and Killer for two days.. And had only been the character of Ike for two days... I learned now for sure that they had hearts... They weren't zombies. They were just trying to get by. They were human for sure. Ike lifted Lillith into his arms and with Killer by his side walked the crying girl and her twin brother to their home. Lillith had fallen asleep in Ike's arms so the two boys put her into her bed. Killer thanked Ike and the two hugged and parted. I took the disturbed Ike... Me.... To the center and soon we sat the meeting starring across the circle at crying Kelsie. Life was rough and if you were different life was harder. That night Ike followed me home, and on the couch we cried until my parents came home. So even at the dinner table as I thought.... I wondered if Lillith would end up like that girl in the story... A bullet logged in her brain... The thought frightened Ike and me as well...
-Peter
Dear Diary,
This morning I was awkened. I origanlly I thought I was staring into the eyes of a dark haired angel when it was really the sweet Kelsie. I acidentally said something about her eyes being pretty, I meant it... But I must have seemed totally stupid hitting on a girl after I just broke up. I guess I hadn't noticed Kelsie before they way I looked at her now, she had just been dorky little Kelsie in the back of the class. Soon we were changed and I was Henry again... She was suzie. We left for the city to ride the bus... My car had exploded and she had jogged to the center. We rode the bus to her school and talked about the experiment, our lives, class, and just a few jokes here and there. Kelsie got off the bus and the whole way to my school I kept wondering if I actually had feelings for Kelsie... I did not want to end up using her as a rebound... She was too sweet. So once at school I met up with Fred and we latched hands (Of course this still felt weird). We walked to all our classes and everything seemed to go okay until sixth period when the same football played ripped our hands away from eachother and scolded Henry and Fred for being in love... For the second time. This set both Henry and I off. I had to convince myself that Henry wasn't holding me up as I spoke... Henry wasn't even real... But what I did next wasn't just for Henry and Fred it was for many many other gay guys out there that this happened to every day. I turned to glare down the hall at the football player. "Hey you!" I had yelled at him at the top of my lungs, "So why's it fair that you can hold hands with your girlfriend but I can't hold hands with my boyfriend? I love him just as much as you love your girlfriend so why the heck should you have any right to rip my hand away from his?!" The football player turned and glared at me and Fred, his face grew redder with every passing moment. I spoke again, "Mine and Fred's relationship is nothing different from yours!" I yelled and looked to Fred who seemed surprised at what I was doing, nether of us were really gay so this was strange to us both, "If you ever tell me and Fred to seperate our hands again... You will be in for a big surprise." I had yelled and then Fred and I latched hands and walked to the parking lot, I guess I was feeling pretty proud of myself. Work was normal... Boring and retarded. Howerver, when I got back to the center right away I noticed the sobbing Kelsie on the bench. She was still dressed up as Suzie and it seemed that she had been crying for a long time too. I sat beside her and wrapped my arms around her. It was almost if she knew it was me because she collapsed into my arms. When I had convinced her to get changed and come to the meeting we sat next to each other and litsened to the others, I spoke of what I did but Kelsie... Kelsie was quiet. I left her at the front doors and went to the city to see how my mom was doing. When I caught up on the latest I gave them Henry's paycheck and left for the center again. I didn't want the hotel to charge for me and I could get free food at the center. After everyone had left I got to thinking, that proudness I felt... I had never felt somethng that extreme ever before. I had stopped thinking about my ex and started thinking about how I stood up for the gay boy that currently was taking up the magority of my life for this week. Henry and I had bonded in some strange way... Even though he was imaginary I could feel a strong bond building between us. Hopefully I could continue to fight for Henry without getting hurt by giant football players at some point. I wasn't going to give up on making Henry's imaginary life get better, it was my job... And I was going to do it.
-Leon
