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I still feel as if Im in the dark, alone. Who knows when I'll be able to face the challenge of fighting my way out. I hear the cries for help, but they are not my own. I cant help them here, not in this state. No, I wish to sit here and brood. I need to consider this darkness for what it really is. I was asked 'what has become of the man I once knew'. I dont know. He's here somewhere... but he is silent for his own reasons. I feel as if I hardly know him now. There are so many things that I want to share. That I should share. But im afraid. Afraid of hurt feelings, mine and everyone elses. No one really knows Jodo. I feel two faced some days. Putting on a happy face, and saying things that a happy person would say. When in actuallity all I feel is... numb. So, alone in the dark I shall sit. No exit in sight, but none is needed. I like it here. Maybe I should never leave.

Im going to stop making entries in my journal now. If im truely to be alone, then I should bottle it all up like always. My, what an ironic world this is. *laughs*