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Hey Kiddos,

So I've learned a lot from 2010. That I shouldn't depend on men to make me happy. That I don't have to settle for something that is there and barely meets my needs. That I do want to have kids one day. That maybe one day I will adopt a second dog. A smaller or medium one. My big lug I love him so much but I can't carry him around and it takes a lot of strength to get him into the bathtub. Its all worth it.
Love life has taken a mind of its own, but driving to get my sister from work last night gave me a chance to think it over. I had an offer to go hang out with Ryu since my friend bailed on me last night. I could have accepted but my body wouldn't let me. It's like my mind was determined that accepting that offer would not be good for it. Overall it was a good choice. Also wanting to just talk to Miroku last night died fast. He has grown up and what we had has been split further apart. Its great that we can get along and really guess what the other person needs or wants to hear. Or even thinking of what we won't say out loud but its understood.
Also I dyed my hair. Best decision ever. This color was made for me and I thought it would be too dark. I want to do a lot this year. I have the chance to be great and i am going to take it. If love comes then it does. If not I will think of this. I am loved by some and that's enough for me. Until next time.