Alright, I'm friken confused. I don't understand what's going on. Last night Alicia told me that she needed words of encouragment and sent me a long e-mail discribing all her little problems. It didn't annoy me at all. I love to help people that I love. Anyhoo, I sent her a very heart felt e-mail back giving her a little advice and telling her that everything will be okay and that I'll always be there for her and that she's an amazing person... ya know... that kinda thing. Well, she hasn't said a damn thing to me today. I bet I creeped her out. Either that or she doesn't think I'm important enough to talk to. In either case, why would someone come to me and then say nothing to me all day? Well, whatever. I'm not going to fret over this for too long. I will care for her, but I'm not going let her bother me so much. I mean, it doesn't make sense to let someone who doesn't care for you that much bother you. There has to be someone else out there for me. I refuse to lower my bar though. No way am I going to compromise just because I haven't gotten what I wanted in the past.
I am a little bothered though. I don't like the way people use me. I feel like I get used all the time. It isn't fair that someone leans on me and then dicards me when they feel better. When will someone think that I am important enough to actually spend time with and not just as some crutch they can pull out of the closet when they are hurt? Yes, I know that there are those who see me as much, much, much, more than that, but I still get pretty miffed when people do that to me. Well, I gots ta go now. Later days.
Jordan~
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