nope
this isn't going to get better is it? Am I going ot continue on like this? I feel like it doesn't matter who I turn my cairng on... it will never matter to whoever I do. I love all of my friends.... ALL of them. Even the ones I'm arguing with right now. And it's more than that. I love them with all my heart... ALL OF IT!!!! If I care for anyone, it will be with every fiber of my being. However, it feels as though they only care with half of their hearts... if not, less. I don't want to go on feeling this way... it hurts so much. I want to be there for them and see them through things that get tough and hug them and let them know I'll be here forever.... but it isn't good enough for them. I... am not good enough for them. They keep searching, or have already found someone better. I don't even mean relationshipwise. Some of my friends have friends that they put way before me. I'm just as good... sometimes better. I don't think so because of any ego trip or anything. It's because I know all of my heart goes out to them. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to keep going on feeling obsolete to my friends. There is no one out there who sees me as a close friend. I'm just the friend....
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