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So, here I am again in this terrible state. I'm so upset and mad right now that I don't know just how mad I am. I know that I feel terrible on top of everything. I feel like garbage. The girl replaced me so quickly that it makes me feel meaningless. Not to mention that she replaced me without even letting me know it's over. That makes me feel not just replacable, but expendable. Do other people see me this way? Am I simply going to be tossed aside by other people that I care about? I don't know if I can forgive this. No matter how I see it I was just ******** tossed aside without a thought. I suppose this is all I can say about this. For once the words just don't do justice to how I really feel. It's so much worse. I think I want to die now if this is all I will ever know. rejection is one thing, but flat out expendability and replacment is something that I just don't know how to deal with. It hurts me... even physically it hurts. I can't recover... it just doesn't get any better. Anyway, I'm done. Goodnight.