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It's been a long long long a** time since I've written in this thing. All I used to do, it seems, was b***h about some girl. I'm over that now. I'm a happy positive person now and I like it! No more trying to find my worth in other people, my worth is my own and with God.

I suppose I could go through a history of it all. Um... where the hell do I start? The entry before this one was about my ex girlfriend, Morgan. I'm long since over that. Her evil is nothing compared to the good I've found. Something that did hurt was January of 2008, when I saw Caitlin again. She gave me all kinds of signals like she was all interested like she was before and it didn't happen. She broke me in half a second time. It was tough to get through. Then I started leaning on friends. Well, I went with my best friend to Texas and s**t hit the fan. We argued, it was a lot my fault, I could have been a better friend, considering we were there to take care of her dad's things because he died, but there were times when she was a terrible b***h and just egged me on. She is a woman though, that's what they do. Then, after that, I got close to my friend Carie and she said she'd be there for me and, long story short, she wasn't. So, after all that, I was sick of all the s**t and pushed them away, out of my heart. There was one girl who was still in my heart though... I can't get into that though... she was everything to me.

Anyway, after all the trauma to my emotions, I leaned on God and away from people. People will only let me down. It turned out alright. I became more positive and could help people the way I had been doing for all this time, but didn't care about being appreciated. (partially because of that other girl, but I still won't get into that) So, this is a little abridged (a lot abridged) but whatever. The point of this is to state my new positive nature. I'm doing good and I will continue to do good. I'm going to school in the fall for radiology, and I will succeed. My life is ahead of me and I will make it. No one will hold me back now.