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So, I woke up today in the most foul mood. Everyhting annoys me no matter how small. I'm breaking and I don't like it. I've noticed that every a** hole I've seen has everything they want.... everything I want. There are some who have so much and still b***h about not having what they want. Why is it this way? Why am I stuck in such a crappy situation? Maybe I should just become a total a** hole jerk. It seems that people like them better and it also seems that they always pull ahead and get whatever the hell they want. All I've been doing is trying to make every else's life around me easier. I've been nicer than nice. I've alwas done the right thing... and look at me. I'm stuck in the most terrible rut I've ever been in. I don't mess up, I just ******** don't and it doesn't matter. I'm the most unappreciated human on the planet (other than Jesus) and I often wonder why. Whatever, I don't even really care about that anymore. Either way, I can't be a totall a** hole jerk. I just can't stop being a nice guy, which means I will always finish last.