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Aaaaw, I know just how you're feeling. You want to give back to them just what they give to you. You're sick of giving and giving and helping and caring without reciprocity, (they reciprocate by responding in kind). It's really sad because there are very few people who follow the golden rule nowadays, (do unto others as you would have done unto you) and those who do follow it, get frustrated, hurt, and give up. I don't know who broke the chain, but that first person who broke the golden rule started a chain reaction. This happens to me all the time, but I just keep on going as I do, helping and caring and giving even though I know they will not appreciate it, or respond in any way. But I have found that eventually, sooner or later, people DO realize how amazing it is that you continue to share the love with them even when they have treated you like crap. I just had a friend who signed my yearbook with a truly amazing message. She totally ditched me earlier this year, and was really horrible to me, but I just acted as if she hadn't done it, and kept on treating her as if we were the best of friends. And in my yearbook she wrote, "It's so amazing that you've forgiven me after all I've done. Your friendship means a lot to me and I want to thank you for not giving me what I deserved, and for just sharing the light of God with me through it all. I'll never forget you." That's just an excerpt of the whole note, but it does show that there is hope that your kindness will reach people. They may not learn the lesson immediately, but over time, they will indeed realize the truth. Please do not despair. There are days when I feel just like you are feeling, and just wish a bus would run me over, but there is hope! I hope that you do not give up on the golden rule, even though it has given you every reason to do so. Maybe if enough people stay strong in it, the rule will eventually get restored. Hold on okay? *hug*