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I can't believe this happened again. I have nothing.... AGAIN!!! The greatest thing in my life just walked away. My best friend who cared about me the most is gone. There is no one else left to care. I'm alone again. Why does this happen to me? Why do I have to put up with all of this? I don't understand. How could someone who used to be so excited to see me, who used to laugh with me and everything just quit caring about me? I feel so defeated. I'm done. I can't go on anymore. I won't kill myself. That's just retarded. My fate is so much worse. I am to continue living as an empty shell. This just sucks. I have been dropped when I needed her the most. I'm at such a road block in my life. I have nowhere to go and there is no path for me to follow. I can't go anywhere. So, I've lost my best friend and I have a nowhere life. How I don't cry is a mystery to me. I'm dying on the inside. I can't deal with this anymore. I'm gonna go home and curl up in a little ball and sleep for a long time.